Day 6

PHEW -- we're almost done!! I'm not "jonesing" for sugar like I thought I would be, but I'm excited about being able to eat what I want again. I did almost quit last night, but like I have considered it so many other times this week, I chose not to.

It's official, I'm definitely starting WW tomorrow. It's going to be tough going back (and feeling like I've failed with my weight loss goals from the last 18 months) but I'm dedicated. I've always said that I'd like to be a leader for teens and I noticed that the local WW offers teen classes once a week. If I can get back down to my goal weight, I can lead classes for teens!

breakfast
grits, eggs, and cheese
grape juice

lunch
tuna (mixed with yogurt) -- not to bad!
wheat crackers
grapes

snack
chips and dip :( [at least it was sugar free]

dinner
I'm not sure yet...

Day 5

Last night I got major compliments on my spaghetti by L. He said that it was by far the best he's had (coming from me anyway). I usually buy the cheap stuff (I'm not a fan of all that added junk) but he seemed to like the organic sauce. It was pretty good I guess but I added my own seasoning to the meat before I put the sauce in it. Gordon Ramsay said something about how you should season everything so I figured what the heck. I've put all my seasoning on top of my stove so that I can see it and it has made it easier to remember what I have.

BTW, if you don't read my comments, the banana bread was horrible. Thank goodness P will eat anything. I think I'll stick with the other recipe if I make it again. I'm not a big bread person but I usually eat cereal or a granola bar for breakfast (it's fast) and the bread is an easy eat.

breakfast
1 slice of super yucky banana bread
1 cup grape juice (YUM!)

lunch
leftover spaghetti

dinner
chicken and something??

I'm going stir crazy in this house...P and I are heading to the doctor to see what's up with his rash. My gut tells me everything is fine but my mom brain would feel better with a professional's opinion.

We are hopefully scheduling a family photo session next weekend so I may go looking for clothes for us to wear. I'm a fan of the "dressing similar" family portraits. The background is a sunflower field so I'm thinking of blue colors...we'll see. I'm just dying to get out of the house. Hopefully this rash isn't contagious...that's why we've been staying in.

Oh, and I've decided to start attending WW meetings again. Some previous plans have [not really worked out] changed so I might as well try to get this weight off.

day 4

Honestly, this whole "no sugar" thing is kind of boring. I think that I'm eating worse but I have lost 1.5 lbs. I really didn't do this to lose weight. I did it to try to make a more conscious effort when selecting food to eat. Anyway, I just don't feel like it's making a huge difference. I like that I can eat anything I want and still lose weight but I think the WW lifestyle is better for me. I feel like this whole "journey" is lonely. I don't feel like anyone else around thinks about the 20 lbs they're going to gain before eating that plate of french fries and that ice cream. I want so badly to be able to just eat and not worry about the pounds that will be packed on from the food. I guess that's why all this is so hard for me. It's like a constant battle that I'm always losing. At my lowest weight I worried the most about what I ate. I wish I could find a point where I'm happy with my weight and happy with what I eat.

Oh well...P is really fussing at me today. He's been sick so it's been super fun times in my house (makes all this especially fun)

** P is taking a nap...this is in the oven now!! **

breakfast
fruit smoothie (P drank half of it -- he's such a beggar)

lunch
leftovers from last night

dinner
munched on chips and cheese while cooking
spaghetti

day 3

well, day 2 went better -- I definitely did not feel like I was dying. I've noticed today, though, that I've struggled with the need to eat today. So far, I've put the snacking off but I'm probably about to hit up the watermelon bowl.

breakfast
fruit smoothie (strawberries, blackberries, grapes)

lunch
left overs from last night
1 slice of banana bread

dinner
stewed beef tips (not the best decision to cook in the skillet)
homemade gravy
smashed cauliflower
bowl of watermelon (shared with P)

I'm planning on making another loaf of banana bread tonight and might use a different recipe...yummy good stuff!

day 2

Last night ended on a better note. A full belly helped my headache go away. I was a little excited about getting started on day two and the challenges that I'll have with finding lunch. I've prepared breakfast and dinners but did not really plan for lunch.

breakfast
1 slice of my banana bread
1 cup milk

snack
1 slice banana bread

lunch
pan grilled scallops
rice
watermelon

dinner
my version of shrimp mixed (an entree from a local Mexican restaurant)
shrimp, rice, cheese sauce, caramelized onions, bell peppers, tomatoes

after dinner snack
1 piece of banana bread

here we go!

started my "sugar cleanse" today...so far so good I guess. I forgot to weigh on the Wii before I ate or drank anything. I'll just go by the bathroom scale I guess.

I'm guessing that the week will go quickly though, so here we go.

breakfast
I had egg whites and cheese (I don't normally just eat the whites, but a recipe called for egg whites a while back and I had to buy a big thing of them...so I'm paying for it now) with whole wheat crackers, and apple juice (100% natural - no sugar added). I didn't finish my eggs (thought maybe I wasn't hungry anymore) but I'm dreaming of chocolate.

lunch
super healthy...chips and cheese dip (yeah right!!)
yogurt, grapes, and watermelon.

dinner
cedar plank salmon
baked potato
banana nut bread (made without sugar)

*I'm dying [I've got a horrible headache] just give me one tiny chocolate chip please.*

flop :(

well, my first attempt at homemade was a total flop. I wish I could make a pun out of this but I just didn't do it right I guess. My mix did not rise :(

I don't consider myself to be a master chef, but I can usually make something that I set out to make.

I used the recipe on the bag of flour and not the recipe that I had originally planned to use. There's just too much involved in making bread. I may just skip out and use the whole wheat Triscuit crackers for "bread" next week.